a.MARIE
PERFECTION ISN'T EVERYTHING!
Friday, July 3, 2009
How depressing is this?!
I calculated my student loan debt.....
I'm pretty much at 40,000 dollars.
WTF?!
How did this happen?!
This does not even include the intrest on these mothafuckas!
OMG.
-insert sad face-
i'm going to be in debt forfuckingever.
PLUS,
i'm not even done with school yet.
masters. law school.
my debt is only going to keep increasing!!!
Labels: debt, depressing, school loans
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
unemployed.
Well
after 4 fucking years working for wack ass Buckhead Uniforms,
I was fired.
The Southlake location where I worked recently got a new "manger."
I was less than thrilled when I learned about the new mangement,
because the lady and I had a rocky past.
Upon finding the information out,
I pretty much decided to quit my job because I knew things at work would be very bad.
However, after much persausion from my mother,
she convinced me to stick it out.
Now with my old mangers,
I was pretty much next in charge.
I got to do what I wanted.
I got the most hours.
Let the other employees do the majority of the work.
Pretty much, I could decide what I wanted to do at work.
I was often late by an hour to hour and a half.
But that was more so because I had a lot on my plate: school.
also, the meds I take for my allergies are overwhelmingly drowsing.
I suppose since we had such a long history and i'd proven to be a good worker,
my lateness was overlooked.
When the new manger came in May,
I was register for Maymester courses.
I was required to go to school everyday for the month of May.
Usually in May, there aren't many hours to be given so I didn't think it would be a problem.
I told the new manger I'd be able to return to work in June.
She said that was fine and would call me once it was time for me to work with my schedule.
I was also taking regular summer semester courses, which prevented me from working Mondays and Wendesdays.
In the past, our store was closed on Monday.
This summer we were opened on Mondays.
Therefore, there were two days out of the 6 day week I could not work.
Prior to my old mangers leaving, they told me the new manager was annoyed I could not work that often.
From there, I knew a problem was going to arise.
June came and she gave me one day for the first week, while the other employees were getting like three days.
I was infuriated.
It was like the bitch was penalizing me for going to school.
The six days I did work for the new manger I tried to do my best to be polite, friendly and curtious.
Although she was not as friendly to me as she was to some of the other employees and was short with me, I thought our relationship was slowly improving.
However, I contined to be late.
But this bitch decided to pull me to the side, cop a manger attitude with me and say lateness waw not acceptable.
I made effort to improve my lateness.
At the most, I was only late by 10 mins as opposed to my 90-120 minute lateness.
There were usually no customers in the store.
She never mentioned it again.
I figured she saw my improvement and all was fine.
To my surprise,
Tuesday after work, she played me.
Saying to me business was slow and I was not longer needed.
I challenged her by saying I'd been working here the longest out of all the employees.
She then goes into this rant about I didn't respect her as a manger and I was always late.
I'm really just pissed because I KNEW i should have quit before getting fired.
It looks bad on my part to be fired.
I've been waiting to leave Buckhead Uniforms for awhile now,
and get into some sort of Criminal Justice government job.
Now, I probably won't be able to get a job because i was fired
and there's no way I can lie or bullshit my way about it since most jobs in this field require poloygraphs.
I've thought about contacting the main location and talking with them about my situation.
But I know that my plight will more than likely not be heard.
Although, my old mangers told those in charge of the company of my experience with the company and felt i could handle the position of manger,
those in charge would take sides with this new manger for she had been with the company for about 10 years.
Furthermore, I was not happy with many of the changes within the company.
We had not recieved our .50 cent raise this summer.
Hours had been cut back drastically reguardless of not hiring our usual summer help.
There had been times where we worked overtime and did not get time and a half.
The company was purchasing crap clothing and expected to sell them at somewhat high prices.
In a time when walmart, target and JCPenny's sell school uniforms, the business seems to be slipping.
There even seems to be more and more uniform companies emerging.
In the past, Buckhead Uniforms had almost a monopoloy on quality school uniforms.
Many of our biggest private schools are leaving and going to other uniform companies.
Dealing with people at the other locations were annoying.
They often were rude, disrespectful amoungst other things.
The woman who owns the family business was slowly passing the business to her son-in-law was beyond rude.
He had the nerve to ask whether any of the employess at our location were worth keeping when our old mangers were deciding to leave.
Mind you, every one who worked there had at least been there a year.
Most of us, over 3 years and some since the location had first opened.
On top of everything else, I was just tired of retail and customer service.
And I hate to say especially in a predominately black neighborhood.
Black customers are beyond rude for no reason.
At the same time, we carter to many private schools.
Many white people come into the store with superiority complexes.
Suprisingly, I am not upset by this.
I don't know.
I am mad because I feel as though I have done a lot for the company.
Only for it all to be taken away by one new manger who failed to give me a chance.
At the same time, I've been ready to leave Buckhead Uniforms.
I guess I am most upset because I wasn't able to leave on my own terms after giving so much of my time and loyalty to the company.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
RIP
RIP MICHAEL JACKSON.
lord knows, i used to love me some michael jackson when i was little.
my mother bought all his "albums" for me when i was little.
yes, albums.
no one will ever touch as many people as MJ did.
he passing is a total shock.
it is a shame people have tarnished his name the way they have with the child molestation allegations & name calling.
RIP FARRAH FAWCETT
a style icon.
but most importantly, a beautiful strong intelligent charming and funny woman..
who fought and stayed positive in a time when most people would have given up.
A woman who was not ashamed to share with the world her difficult cancer battle
A woman who was not afraid to be seen by millions without her trademark hair.
She is definitely inspiring for all these qualities.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
trifflin ass roommates
I have been living in my apartment since May 1st.
Overall, I have been loving it!
However, my roommate and her boyfriend have been getting on my last nerve in terms of their cleanliness.
These mothafuckers continue to leave their trash and other shit out in the living room and kitchen like they are the only ones living here.
Keep in mind, we have a dish washer.
When you're done with a dish, all you have to do is load it into the dishwasher.
Not to mention, this bitch was the main one bitching about boyfriends do not need to be over on a daily basis.
Meanwhile, her loser ass boyfriend does not have a job and he doesn't like his parents so he has been living with us.
I don't necessarily have a problem with him stayin over but at the same time I get tired of lookin at this skinny mothafucka slouched on the couch in boxers every day of the week.
PRIOR TO THE ATROCITIES THAT ARE MY ROOMMATE & HER BOYFRIEND:
Oh, how I miss the days when my apartment use to look like this.
Now, my apartment has clothes piled up in the living room.
Dirty plates, left over food & drink, papers, all kind of shit scattered across the living room & kitchen.
Last week, omg, was the worse it has been.
She had a couple come stay with us who she knew from her old school.
Trash piled up on the countertops, around the trashcan, dirty qtips in my bathroom
Juice of mine drunk, new pack of cheese pratically gone.
I need to talk to her about this,
but I don't know what to say.
I don't want to be a bitch, because I am known to be one.
I like her as a person.
She's cool & so is her boyfriend.
But if things continue this way,
I'll be resentful towards her and the next 13 months of both our lives could be hell.
We pay too much money to be unhappy.
Why can't I ever find roommates who are respectful of the "common areas?"
Who understand I do NOT want to be living in YOUR filth.
Who understand I do NOT want to be living in YOUR filth.
THE FILTH THAT IS MY ROOMMATE & HER BOYFRIEND:
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
my boyfriend
so.
me being the nosey & bored individual i tend to be,
i decided to google my boyfriend's "online identity."
the user name he uses for his yahoo, myspace, etc.
up comes his username on a site called mocospace.
basically from what i've seen,
it's a myspace type website made specifically to be used on your cell phone.
however, myspace can be used as business, pleasure or whatever the fuck you want it to be.
this site seems to be on some "hookup" type shit.
anyway,
i'm browsing through his page and nothing but bitches.
one particular girl he has conversations w/ on a regular basis.
from her end of the conversation, she asks whether he has a girl & something about "its whenever you have time."
like,
i honestly don't know how to take this information.
should i just brush it off as nothing?
from what i can see, he's just chatting.
i chat with other niggas.
i have a facebook & a myspace.
but, every dude that hits me up knows i have a boyfriend.
more importantly, i don't hit dudes up and i am not on myspace or facebook to meet guys.
i typically just use facebook and myspace to stay in contact with people and entertainment purposes.
he on the other hand is on a website that encourages hookups.
he does not have any of his profiles that he is in a relationship.
and i tried to defend the fact that he doesn't have "in a relationship" on myspace because he doesn't get on it much and he hasn't updated his profile in years.
on the other hand, he updates this mocospace shit on a daliy & it says single.
am i just trippin?
or do i need to get gone?
like,
i feel like ...
i don't know.
he claims he loves me.
he's always telling me how much he loves me.
he shows it in all his other actions.
helping me when i may need money.
he took off work this friday to help me move.
he'll call or text me just to say he loves me.
but at the same time,
i feel like i sound like one of those dumb bitches who makes all these excuses as to why her boyfriend loves her & he's not doing anything to hurt me.
what to do? what to do?
..........i do know i'm not saying a damn thing until this nigga helps me move lol
;/
me being the nosey & bored individual i tend to be,
i decided to google my boyfriend's "online identity."
the user name he uses for his yahoo, myspace, etc.
up comes his username on a site called mocospace.
basically from what i've seen,
it's a myspace type website made specifically to be used on your cell phone.
however, myspace can be used as business, pleasure or whatever the fuck you want it to be.
this site seems to be on some "hookup" type shit.
anyway,
i'm browsing through his page and nothing but bitches.
one particular girl he has conversations w/ on a regular basis.
from her end of the conversation, she asks whether he has a girl & something about "its whenever you have time."
like,
i honestly don't know how to take this information.
should i just brush it off as nothing?
from what i can see, he's just chatting.
i chat with other niggas.
i have a facebook & a myspace.
but, every dude that hits me up knows i have a boyfriend.
more importantly, i don't hit dudes up and i am not on myspace or facebook to meet guys.
i typically just use facebook and myspace to stay in contact with people and entertainment purposes.
he on the other hand is on a website that encourages hookups.
he does not have any of his profiles that he is in a relationship.
and i tried to defend the fact that he doesn't have "in a relationship" on myspace because he doesn't get on it much and he hasn't updated his profile in years.
on the other hand, he updates this mocospace shit on a daliy & it says single.
am i just trippin?
or do i need to get gone?
like,
i feel like ...
i don't know.
he claims he loves me.
he's always telling me how much he loves me.
he shows it in all his other actions.
helping me when i may need money.
he took off work this friday to help me move.
he'll call or text me just to say he loves me.
but at the same time,
i feel like i sound like one of those dumb bitches who makes all these excuses as to why her boyfriend loves her & he's not doing anything to hurt me.
what to do? what to do?
..........i do know i'm not saying a damn thing until this nigga helps me move lol
;/
Friday, April 17, 2009
faith 21
where the hell have I been?! Forever 21 is debuting a new line called Faith 21! & it's about motherfucking time. This line is for women sizes 12-18. I love Forever 21 and can generally fit into some their clothes. But at the same time, there are times when I wish the top were a little bigger because my big ass breasts damn near rip the shirt open or my hips and gut cut into skirt band & allows me no room to breath! so I am very excited. Not to mention, some of the clothes are cut super small. But cheap clothes for my very small college student budget , yay! ;] & Just in time for mis cumpleanos, which is May 10th btw. The line launches May 1st. I've always had this idea in mind. Creating cute, cheap "plus/popular sized clothes" like sizes 8-20 or something because of the lack of clothing for girls who have hips, ass, breasts and thighs.(8 really isn't a plus size, I know. & I honestly don't consider 12 & 14 plus size my damn self...) Maybe now I won't have to.
............Or I can get ideas for the launch of my own line from Faith 21. ;]
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
moving ;]
23 DAYS & COUNTING !
My roommate & I finally found the apartments of our dreams. They are absolutely gorgeous! They are in the heart of downtown, practically next door to the fox theater, minutes from Atlantic Station. Across the street is the Old Spaghetti Factory. We also have a mom and pop pizza place and sushi (yuck) restaurant on the first level of the apartment building. Also, we have a black hair salon that specializes in healthy and natural hair! I've heard great things about the salon. My mom even went there once and liked it. Minutes away from clubs such as Djanos. We're getting a two bedroom two bathroom apartment that's over 1200 square feet. We have a balcony that overlooks the city. Big ass walk-in closets in both rooms. It also has the most wonderful fitness center, pool and courtyard! Yeah bitches, I am definitely about to get that body right! We move in May 1st. There is so much to do. Pack. Figure out what I am going to do with my dog, Julio. Find a bed and other furniture. While, finishing up the semster of school.
My roommate & I finally found the apartments of our dreams. They are absolutely gorgeous! They are in the heart of downtown, practically next door to the fox theater, minutes from Atlantic Station. Across the street is the Old Spaghetti Factory. We also have a mom and pop pizza place and sushi (yuck) restaurant on the first level of the apartment building. Also, we have a black hair salon that specializes in healthy and natural hair! I've heard great things about the salon. My mom even went there once and liked it. Minutes away from clubs such as Djanos. We're getting a two bedroom two bathroom apartment that's over 1200 square feet. We have a balcony that overlooks the city. Big ass walk-in closets in both rooms. It also has the most wonderful fitness center, pool and courtyard! Yeah bitches, I am definitely about to get that body right! We move in May 1st. There is so much to do. Pack. Figure out what I am going to do with my dog, Julio. Find a bed and other furniture. While, finishing up the semster of school.